I started outpatient treatment for my eating disorder. I was diagnosed with an Eating Disorder: Not Otherwise Specified. I am going to write about my experiences, which I believe will help. I also struggle with addiction (sober over 3 years), depression, anxiety, PTSD, traits of Borderline Personality Disorder, and am a survivor of abuse. Other stuff about me: I recently turned 30 and am the single mom of an 11 year old. I am a birth doula, recent graduate school graduate, graphic design freelancer, and I still have no idea what I want to do with my life.
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courtmcgourt:

when that voice takes over…

courtmcgourt:

when that voice takes over…

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5 months ago
cuts-on-her-arms:

fckyeahmayday:

Yup. I’m doing this ok

please do this you guys, pleasssse!

usually I hate these things. But sometimes this is good solidarity.

cuts-on-her-arms:

fckyeahmayday:

Yup. I’m doing this ok

please do this you guys, pleasssse!

usually I hate these things. But sometimes this is good solidarity.

(via nothi--ng)

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5 months ago

I am realizing the lack of food my mom and aunt eat really contributing to my ED. My aunt used to say shit like “it’s good to have meat on your body … because if you’re sick you can lose weight.”

So, thanks for calling me fat.

Also, for being told I was addicted to the refrigerator by my step-dad. Cool, too!

FUCKED UP. DON’T MAKE COMMENTS ABOUT YOUR CHILD’S BODY. Unless you’re saying “you’re beautiful in that dress” or whatever. 

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5 months ago
saola:

nekama:

“wtf r u doin leave me alone”

so cute

saola:

nekama:

“wtf r u doin leave me alone”

so cute

(Source: pewpey, via ichigo-grrrl)

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5 months ago

Of all the self destructive behaviors I have gotten rid of and/or working on getting rid of … I miss weed and my eating disorder the most.

I haven’t smoked weed for 6+ years. That is the drug I was addicted to, more than alcohol. Annoying that I miss it.

I miss my ED because it made me feel more in control, now without it … or least dismantling it, sometimes things suck.

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5 months ago